This is another mental health disorder that sometimes people can get mixed up with other illnesses such as BPD and other emotionally unstable or personality disorders.
Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic depression, is a condition that affects your moods, which can swing from one extreme to another.
People with bipolar disorder have periods or episodes of:
- depression – feeling very low and lethargic
- mania – feeling very high and overactive (less severe mania is known as hypomania)
When it comes down to symptoms for bipolar disorder it depends very much so on what mood they are experiencing at the time… one episode can last up to several weeks and many may not experience feeling in a ‘normal’ mood very often.
Similar to depression the difference here is those low, suicidal or overwhelming feelings don’t come and go but often stay with you for a much longer period of time which can also lead to manic feelings or episodes.
These don’t always have to be negative emotions, during a manic phase you may feel very happy and have lots of energy, ambitious plans and ideas. You may spend large amounts of money on things you can’t afford and wouldn’t normally want.
In this case you may just believe the episode is more of a positive experience however, you may also experience symptoms of psychosis, where you see or hear things that aren’t there or become convinced of things that aren’t true.
The high and low phases of bipolar disorder are often so extreme that they interfere with everyday life.
To discover more on different types of episodes click here
*One thing you will find in common with most if not all of these mental illnesses is they’re not excuses but explanations to how others deal with their emotions, or battle their thoughts daily. I’m not denying it’s tough to understand, but by at least trying to understand you open up a chance for someone who suffers with mental health to not feel ashamed or the need to hide and be embarrassed, you provide an opportunity to better communicate and understand one another.
Poem I’ve written…
It hurts so much this heaviness inside,
Though I try to conceal it it’s too powerful to disguise.
It builds up the pressure which I know will at some point blow,
Yet I try and I try to let this pressure go.
Left in this prison I created, even threw away my own key,
Have forgotten how to get out, have forgotten feeling free.
Though love and help surrounds me on which I depend,
This guilt builds up inside me that my misery too they might befriend.
Then alone I shall not be in this prison cell,
As even those I love I would have dragged down in my own hell.